All In
This past year I have been faced many times with a very specific decision.
Will I be “all in”?
Will something in me hold back or will I give all of me?
Will I let someone or something else choose for me or will I commit to being “all in” regardless?
I keep deciding that I’m all in.
Even when I am shaking I am so terrified.
Even when I may feel that I’m wholly alone in it.
Even when the unknown feels like a looming assailant in the shadows.
Yet still, when I decide, it’s not in a forceful way. Most of the time it doesn’t even make sense. But, I listen to my gut. And, it just feels right.
I used to think I was all in. Busting my way through barriers.
Pushing. Striving. Fighting.
This is different.
It’s a releasing instead of a manipulation.
A flow instead of a battle.
It’s slippery too. And, never a constant. Just when I think I’ve been all in, I find a place where I’ve still been holding back. But, I open into that part of myself. And choose again.
Each time I step up. Show up fully. All of me. All in.
Then, I am seen. I am greeted. And, I am joined.
And, every time I choose to open myself, I am amazed at what opens in return.
Which gives me confidence to go deeper. To reveal even more.
I choose this. I am here. With you. All of me. All in.
Right now, where in your life could you go deeper, release, and choose to be “all in”?
Christina,
This is so beautifully said. This is exactly what I am trying to do right now with social media and website. It’s scary at times, but one step at a time I go deeper. Thanks and Love!