The Love of a Mother
My mother has always supported and encouraged my creativity and unique spirit. So much so that when I entered into the world (aka… Kindergarten) I was completely unprepared for the criticism and cruelty. It’s taken me over 20 years to finally find peace and a huge reason why I saw such a need for a community to honor who we are.
About a month ago, my mom sent me a letter. It so beautifully conveys her depth of love and support.
The love of a mother is powerful beyond measure and in so many ways she is the mother of Living Quirky.
I hope her letter will inspire you and her love will melt into your heart as well.
xo,
Christina
I feel/think that most people have . . . allowed . . . parts of themselves to be . . . carved away . . . allowed because the pain of feeling the cruelty of living in a uni-dimensional world was too great to bear . . . carved away until they experience only . . . one color . . . in the full spectrum of the authentic, multi-dimensional, human experience.
I started feeling/thinking this way many years ago . . . When I learned how people have different numbers of color receptors; I always wondered why I could see . . . shades of colors . . . that others could not. I wondered how . . . differently . . . I would experience life if . . . I could only see blue . . . rather than blue green, blue grey, blue red, blue yellow, light blue, black blue, green blue . . . how I would have no . . . frame of reference . . . to others multi-dimensional experience . . . if I could only see blue . . . how limited my experience of life would be if . . . I could only see blue . . .
My heart is saddened . . . by the understanding of the pain you have been caused . . . pain caused by others who allowed parts of themselves to be carved away . . . until they became the cruelty that carved away the parts that allowed them to feel . . .
And, yet . . . I understand that this too is part of the human experience . . . to realize that if we are to live in the full spectrum of the authentic, multi-dimensional, human experience, we are . . . vulnerable. Acknowledgement of that . . . vulnerability . . . allows us to remain . . . intact. Feeling that . . . vulnerability . . . allows us to remain . . . intact.
One ceases to feel the cruelty of the uni-dimensional reality when one . . . allows . . parts of ourselves to be carved away . . .
One lives in the . . . numbness . . . when one . . . allows . . . parts of ourselves to be carved away . . . until one becomes the numbness . . . becomes the cruelty . . . of a one-dimensional reality . . .
So, no . . . I don’t believe you are weird . . . and, if you are . . . the world would be a better, more human place if we would all embrace . . . being weird.
I celebrate you because . . . by experiencing the authentic, multi-dimensional, human experience . . . you keep that multi-dimensional experience . . . alive . . .
I find joy because . . . you are . . . alive . . .
I love you . . . in all your authentic, multi-dimensional, human aliveness . . .
Mom
Christina, did I push the send button?? I am sorry if I didnt but I hope I did.
Hi Lisa! Unfortunately, I don’t see another comment of yours so I have a feeling it didn’t make it through.
How lucky you are to have a supportive, understanding, encouraging Mom. Treasure that relationship fully.
It is indeed okay to be ‘different’ at any level. That’s what special and unique means. And I believe each of us are.
Christina,
Your Mom is a great artist. She is an artist in living. She has been your true friend who seems to “get you”. What a lucky woman you are for many of us did not have that kind of Mother. We got our quirkiness from either a
father which I feel I did or others along this journey we call life.
Your sharing with us has been such a meaningful trip as I told you when first we met. It seems like I have known you all of our lives.